So much of our lives are filled with regret. We constantly question our actions. Go back and forth, trying to decide “what if” we did the right thing, said the right words, if we could have done more, if we did our best, fought our hardest, the list goes on.
Lets forget about the above list – the “what if” list. Lets put it away and start a new one. The “NO what ifs” list. The list where we decide to no longer live with regret. Where we fight for what we want, never give up, and no longer let “no” be a reason or an excuse. To know that in the end we gave it our all, 100%, and there was nothing more that could have or should have been done. To know that there are no more “what ifs”.
I recently learned that this is not a bad way to live life. In fact, I’ve decided it’s a damn good way to live, difficult, but damn good. I say difficult, because giving 100% all the time is scary. We don’t know what could be on the other side or what answers we may find. Most likely heading into anything with the attitude of “I’m giving it my all”, is extremely trying and leaves us very vulnerable. It creates the possibility for hurt and pain. But on the flip side, the rewards could be endless. We could be left with the wonderful satisfaction of knowing that we did everything we could. That we fought the good fight. Mostly, we could achieve everything our heart desires, because we chose to never give up. We chose to not let life’s little worries and speed bumps get in the way of our dreams.
This recent understanding came when everyone around me told me to let go. To move forward from a certain someone. While I completely agree with them, I decided that moving forward was only possible if I crossed off everything on my “what if” list. So that’s what I did. One by one, I crossed off each “what if – each should-a, would-a and could-a”. I went for it. Sadly, the result was not what I wanted. It wasn’t the happy ending I was hoping for. But, I can honestly say I am now moving forward with absolutely no regrets.
And really, isn’t that how we should all be living life? To the fullest? Without regret.
Small Regrets (Dancing Through Life with Spirit)